Hi! Im Saying No To Drama :)

Well hello there my dear blog folk! Today was a lot of things: nerve-wracking, exciting, stressful, fun, joyful but it definitely was not boring. My day started at 6 am, the crack of dawn if you ask my opinion, with a frenzy. After a quick shower I plunged straight into cheerleader mode. Two quick pep rally's and we were on the road to Wells Fargo Arena. The cheer van was bubbling over with excitement because today was day one of the state wrestling tournament and we had two boys set to wrestle! Imagine a very very large room full of exuberant parents, intense boys wearing sweatpants up past their belly buttons and a bunch of squealing cheerleaders who smell of hairspray and face powder. Needless to say, I LOVED that room. I couldn't help but get wrapped up in the excitement of it all! Especially when it came time to cross our legs and sit along the side of the mat. In six short minutes we would know who was victorious and who was going home with a heart full of disappointment and that is one excitingly scary sensation that I will never get totally used to. It turned out that both our boys came out on top with their hand held high in the air! I know that us cheerleaders had nothing to do with the tossing and scrambling going on out on the mat, but when both of our wrestlers came off the mat smiling I know we all felt just as excited as they were!

Today was also a challenge. In an arena full of pretty girls it was not easy to remember how beautiful I felt that morning when I took that one last final look into the mirror prior to my departure from home but when I decided to undertake this quest I promised myself I wouldn't let the opinions of others affect me any longer so I did my very best to not let my confidence be brought down. I tried to let the looks I received roll off my shoulders and I am happy to say that after a few minutes of struggling, they finally disappeared for good! It was a victory of my very own in a room full of a much different sort of wins and losses.

I know it is only day three of my quest, but already I have to alter my rules. I am sad to see it go, but rule five is no longer. Last night I logged onto my facebook account with a huge smile only to have it be replaced with tears a few minutes later. I had been tagged in a status and the comments that it hosted were really hurtful. I had such a good day and had maintained my confidence all day only to have it plummet to the ground because of 3 or 4 people who obviously are not the people I need in my life and that was not fair!

During the Ash Wednesday service at my church I had the greatest idea! I would give up facebook for Lent! Not only would my grades improve due to the more time focussed on my studies, but so would my confidence! I will definitely miss the silly wall posts and hilarious statuses shared between me and my (REAL) friends, but its worth it. I haven't solved my self confidence problems of course, but I feel like I have made a big step in the right direction! :)

Ps. I found two songs yesterday that really helped me remember my mission and why it was so important I succeed. Below are the lyrics that I really found comfort in! :) (Thanks go out to Mp3Lyrics.org & Lyricstime.com!)

"Riptide" by Sick Puppies

You all hate your children
They're too fat to feed
you're on medication
Taking pills to sleep
I think I'm doing just fine
Compared to what you've been doing
I won't get vaccinated
Insurance costs too much
You think you're so persuasive
But I'm not giving up
Saving my life
it's not what you're doing

I, I won't justify
The way I live my life
'Cause I'm the one livin' it
Feelin' it, tastin' it
And you're just wasting your time
Trying to throw me a line
When you're the one drowning
I like where I'm at on my back
Floating down in my own riptide
The water is fine

I like to step on cracks
I go against the odds
You think my world is flat
Do I turn you on?
Maybe, yeah I'm wrong
But I like where I'm going

I leave when others stay
I never re-decide
I don't mind if you wait
But I don't waste my time
Crazy is just fine
'Cause I like where I'm going

I, I won't justify
The way I live my life
'Cause I'm the one livin' it
Feelin' it, tastin' it
And you're just wasting your time
Trying to throw me a line
When you're the one drowning
I like where I'm at on my back
Floating down in my own riptide
The water is fine

I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when it wasn't so hard
I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when, I remember when

I, I didn't have to justify
The way I live my life
'Cause I'm the one livin' it
Feelin' it, tastin' it
And you're just wasting your time
Trying to throw me a line
When you're the one drowning
I like where I'm at on my back
Floating down in my own riptide
The water is fine

I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when it wasn't so hard
I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when, I remember when

& "Odd One" by Sick Puppies as well.

Odd one, you're never alone
I'm here and I will reflect you
Both of us basically unattached
To anything or anyone unless we're pretending
You live your life in your head
Some call it imagination
I'd rather focus instead on anything except
What I'm feeling
What I'm feeling
Odd one...

Hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, we're gonna laugh at this one day

Odd one, I wish I was you
You're never concerned with acceptance
We are all desperately seeking out, a
And fitting with anyone
Who will accept us
But not you, odd one

Hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, we're gonna laugh at this one day

Hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, gonna laugh at this one day

Hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, we're gonna laugh at this one day

Don't let someone tell you you're no-one
Don't let someone tell you you're no-one
Odd one...